| I don't think im asking for much... |
[Feb. 8th, 2006|10:05 am] |
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To assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something. Trust, probably the biggest and most important thing all relationships need. Without it, there is no relationship. It needs to be possessed on both sides. I have found from personal experience that trust is something that needs to be earned exercised frequently. Anyone can say they trust their partner but in the long run they need to show it. Like I always say, "Words just fill up the page, but actions tell the story." I will live but this for the rest of my life. |
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| Back in action!! |
[Jan. 24th, 2006|10:41 pm] |
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| | Prayin* For Daylight | ] |
ok so break was pretty cool...well i worked pretty much everyday and made bucnches of money but overall it was cool...i went clubbin a few times with the crew :: major fun times ::
back at school and already its soo much better than last semester...i was wicked excited to see jaimie again...excited for my classes...and wicked excited that i was out of my house!...haha
so moving day came...first i locked my keys in the car...grrreat kendra!...so i had to call the campus police and i think they sent the biggest one they had to help me...but this cop was swearing his head off...he reminded me of "tommy boy"...haha i thought i was gonna loose it in front of the cop...so instead i just kept turning away...second it was so god damn windy tht day that the car door tried to slammed shut on my head by hitting me square in the temple...lucky the tears didnt come and nobody saw...thank god!
the rest of the day went fine and i was just happy to be back...
the next day classes started and i had only two...not bad at all...
friday i had no classes...saweet...slept in and then headin home for the weekend...
drove back up here on monday...well monday morning it started to snow...well it started to snow a whole hell of a lot...i left my house around 9 and didnt get here until after 11 when usually the drive is only about 45 min...that roads were terriable...so im happy that im alive... :)
today is tuesday for those who didnt know and i went on a little road trip to melrose...what a drive...i had to go to Hunt's Video & Photo for my photo II class this semester... |
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| Merry Christmas Kendra! |
[Dec. 8th, 2005|02:30 pm] |
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| |  grumpy | ] |
So yeah besides everything else going on in my life right now...It's pretty much a guarantee that ill be working on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day...yay!...But oh well...I guess it will give my family all the time away from me and hopefully enjoy their Christmas...
This weekend I'm going home...of course to work...a double on Saturday which is 7am-10pm...grrreat!...Good money tho because I need it!...Sunday Ill work 7am to about 5pm...maybe earlier...hopefully!... |
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| yet another day! |
[Dec. 7th, 2005|11:49 am] |
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| |  worried | ] |
So after last night...I kinda just want to crawl in a little whole by myself cry and then never leave!...So the whole family things still goes on and on day after day...After about four hours on the phone with my mom with both of us crying doesnt do a whole lot...I just wished it was in person at least...Thats what sucks about living far from your family...When you need them bad, you cant have them right away!...So anyway...life just sucks about now but what can you do??...Just wake up another day and try to be as positive as you can and hope for a better tomorrow! |
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| Here comes santa claus! |
[Dec. 5th, 2005|03:01 pm] |
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Ok so its already a little over a week into December...Can you believe it??...I cant!! I still have shopping to do...like everyone else, but i'm more excited for more snow to come and go home for break. A much needed break!! This semester didn't start off the way I planned by any means. I mean over the summer I couldnt wait to get back into the swing of things, and now i just want to get away from it all!
Recently, I've been going through some personal things that are very hard for me to think about yet alone talk about. It's pretty much ruined my whole semester here at school but they always say family comes first. Due to these personl situations, i've taken so much of everything around me into consideration now. I kinda wish that everything could just go back to normal or at least mid way through summer. Things would have been a lot different. I wouldn't have roomed with friends that I had met last year in school because its hard to live with friends and I wouldnt have lost a couple in the process. I would have lighten my work load to four classes instead of seven course(including a lab). The family events I couldnt have stopped even if I went back to mid summer but things all happen for a reason.
Due to all the events that this semester brought I've been in and out of the hospital with tests. On top of everything else, Ive still had to worry about courses, work, family and my boyfriend. It's been very hard juggling all of them but this is life.
I've decided to stay and live on campus at SSC for next semester with a smaller work load. Work on the weekends still and spending time with the boy. For my junior year, it's still up in the air of what may be happening. It kinda depends on whats happening with my family. Either I stay at SSC and get an apartment off campus with the roomie or I transfer to a college closer to home and commute. In the long run I know I will regret living at home but my family needs the support and help right now.
I kinda thought that this semester would have been different or at least better than what has occured. Things happen for a reason it just seems my family can't get a break from it. All and all, Hope everyone has a safe and joyess holiday and im sorry to everyone i hurt and I wish that things could have been different from the start because things could have been different. |
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| " i shouldnt have to fight for what is already mine!! " |
[Nov. 1st, 2005|05:10 pm] |
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this day started out fine and ended horribly!
question for all girls out there....If you have a boyfriend, and a girl he used to see(as in went on a few dates with) keeps telling him how hot he looks, or how much she still likes him, or how much she wants to be with him, but your boyfriend apprently keeps talking to her and telling her that he loves his girlfriend and doesnt think of her in that way anymore, but this girl wont stop telling him these things...ok so heres the question...should you get upset at the fact that she is being immature and not acting like a friggen adult which college students are supposed to act?
this is my opinion....if this girl wont stop telling him how hot he is and such then its hard to believe that he is really drilling it into this girl that he loves his girlfriend or he is being to nice about it... |
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| new start! |
[Oct. 25th, 2005|11:19 am] |
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ok so lets see....since the last time i wrote...i have switched rooms...i moved down a floor into a room with a girl named jaimie...sooo sweet and funny!...i can actually relax in my own room for once...we have soo much in common that its a little scary but im so glad that i did move to meet her!...
ryan and i are still great...we just take each day one at a time...and i find myself falling for him over and over...
i went home over the weekend for work...not bad...i wish it could have been a little busier at "The HOP" but what can you say...i got to see a bunch of my friends from the summer...i think i missed andrew the most because he is the one who would make fun of me over everything i did...chrissy is my girl to talk to...she will make you laugh on your worst days...me and her always catch up on the drama going on there and somehow the converstation always leads to talking about guys...aww...shes a hoot!
on sunday i was invited to go over to ryans house for dinner...dinner was great...and i got along really well with his parents...surprisenly!
go back to school late sunday night and my key card wouldnt open the damn door...well it had just so happened that my card go deactivated somehow and i had to get a lock out...oh well...
monday night was by far the best night...great day to begin with and incrediable day to end with...around 8, jaimie, ryan and i drove over to watch the boys play dodgeball...ryan ended up playing and jaimie and i watched and did what we do best...CHEER!...to my surprise i had never seen ryan, my boyfriend, like this...he was so good at dodgeball...he was catching the right and left, falling on the ground and catching them, catching a ball with two already in his hand and for most of the time he ws the last one out there...who knew?? |
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| Transfering! |
[Oct. 17th, 2005|10:13 am] |
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| | crushed | ] |
ok so, this semester is already almost over!...i cant believe it...we are already picking classes for next semester...halloween is two weeks away and im wicked excited!...im going to a party on the 29th with the crew, siked!...i changed my costume already...lol...ive been thinking of transfering schools for the junior year...see the problem is my parents live about an hour and fifteen minutes from where i go to school...sees wicked close until i think about me having to commute that everyday next year!...i dont think i want to do that...number one my car is getting older...number two a lot of money toward gas...number three not getting the experience of living on campus with your friends...i dont think i can afford getting an apartment for the year while going to school fulltime and working fulltime...there just arent enough hours in the day...i dont want it to be like summer all over again...therefore these thoughts have been lingering in my mind for a couple weeks now...i dont know maybe bridgewater or framingham or curry college...i dont know what i should do...but i do know that next year theres a good chance i wont be here! |
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| speech time! |
[Oct. 2nd, 2005|10:32 pm] |
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| | pissed off | ] |
ok ok...so granted i did wait to the last minute to write my speech but i didnt remember that i had one due on monday until tonight when driving back up to school...i usually dont have a problem writing essays but this is a speech which everyone will hear and will comment about...under the pressure now...i'm actually in the middle of writing it and im stuck...so i decided to write how much fun my life is right now...NOT! |
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| the fun times in college.... |
[Sep. 29th, 2005|10:58 am] |
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| |  annoyed | ] |
so so on wednesday i had my first passignment due for my intro to electronic media...we had to od the first four lessons and a print out...well when trying to get into the lab to work on this project...i had no such luck!...the lab usually closes around 5pm...and their are always classes in them so how in the hell was i going to be able to work on the lessons...its not like i can work on them on my computer because you need a certain program which i dont have...
all in all...i never got the assignment done for wednesday...i talked to my teacher and she understood and was going to postpone the due date since i wasnt the only one who had no finished!...
since wednesday i have been trying to get into the dame lab and work on the assignment and still no such luck!...i almost want to go to Prof. Richard Lewis, the art dept head, and complain to him...because how are we going to do well in our courses if the proper lab time is not fair... |
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